The critical drama of life

During his lifetime, no literature was created around him, no scandalous noise was raised, and yet he was at the forefront of the Bulgarian intellectual process. It's not that he wasn't written about (on the contrary, his publications were always met with enthusiastic reception and laudatory reviews in the press), but he didn't like to impose his silhouette. Minko Nikolov had an innate dislike for scandalous fame and noisy appearances in literature. But his insufficient "noticing" was to some extent hindered by the innate myopia of his contemporaries. Many things prevented us from seeing him in his true stature. And here we involuntarily fell into the position of Chekhov's heroine, who had dreamed all her life of seeing the extraordinary man, and he was there for her. The daily routine, the controversial nature of the controversial profession - criticism (or as some writers call it, the "strange profession") prevented us from seeing him in his true scale, from taking into account the seriousness of his intellectual drama. This drama became deeper and deeper day by day, to reach the fatal denouement of the end of December 1966. It was only the black silhouette of the suicide bomber that forced upon the living in an inimitable way the magnitude of the life drama called Minko Nikolov. And now we see in the light of "what has happened" the irreversible, the terrifying. "Nothing, that many ridiculous life circumstances prevented us from seeing behind his kind smile the already maturing skeptical, hopeless smile, which often adorned his spiritualized face. And no matter how much we stared and were insightful, we could not discover the depth of his human tragedy. And he had already been carrying it for years, silently and imperceptibly, like some kind of "sarcoma" that torments the brain, takes away the energy of his nerves, the juice of his human and social enthusiasm. She was, with a kind of malicious pace, preparing the sudden catastrophe, the "cruel collapse" of a valuable and long-built creative personality.